Could you, would you, should you luv this?!?

I've been racking my mind lately about relationships. You know when people say "I'm not looking for anyone right now because...", that phrase is simply a cop out. I know I've been there. I'm not in a relationship (while I'm being honest), I would like too but they scare the shit out if me (seriously). So I've settled for the "friend" thing or simply the guys I know I will be over in a month (wow that sounds bad lol :-/ ). The truth of the matter (sometimes) its simply the right person hasn't come knocked on your door yet, and I feel some people have a hard time admitting that (myself included sometimes). So instead we find that excuse to get people off our backs when in all actuality we should be saying "look nothings been bitting lately."
But then again some people are genuinely not looking and that's cool too. I know I'm probably THE last person to give relationship advice (miss trust issues her self), but its simply what's on my mind!
On a lighter note, I've officially lost 10 pounds!!! Yeah suck on that SUCKAS!!!!!! Now I only see it in certain areas but I'm damn pleased that I'm carrying around a lighter load. 30 more to go....wish me luck because I reaaaaaaaalllllly want some pizza....SHIT!!

That's all I have for now you stalkers,

You Can Love Me Forever and Always (YCLMFA) I can't seem to shake 'em off.

Come get this 7 lbs...my welcome back gift to you!

So im back at this again!!! Was I missed (probably not because mot alot of people read my blog before! Lol). Well to fill you guys in I've relocated to Buffalo, New York! Do I love it? Some days. Do I hate it? No. I rather not recap the last two years of my life but just know I've grown a smidge (lol).
For the past 4 weeks I've been on a "diet" or shall I say im just trying to  get back the 20 years of my life the excess weight on my body is taking. To say I am completely comfortable in my own skin would be a lie. I don't think anyone is. Ask someone if they are comfortable in their own skin and after they say yes, Ask them so what would you change about yourself? They will give you at least 3-5 things. Im comfortable to a degree, I would like it if some parts of my body didn't jiggle so much (or rub). So with that being said I've set out to lose 40 pounds by September then maybe another 30 after that (That might be pushing it tho!). I've been hitting the gym 3 to 4 times a week. So far I've lost 7 pounds (and I love it when people notice lol), 32 more to go.
I haven't really cut much out just simply sweets, fast food, and things that might cause cancer or rickets. Im trying to teach my self portion control (which is hard as hell when your a fat ass). I have noticed that my butt has gotten smaller (:-/) which scares me a bit. I fear it disappearing completely, I have no clue how to live with a flat butt!!! I hope the thigh and butt machines at the gym work, if not I'll be a sad flat assed friend!
Btw I wont make this whole blog about weight loss (that's boring), but I will announce my cravings...I want some damn baked macaroni n' cheese! Shit!!
That's all for now,
You Can Love Me Forever and Always (YCLMFA) apparently most people do.