Do you love me, or do you really love my brain ;-) ?

A friend of mine lately keeps telling me "you and your words! you have a way with words!" People have told me that for years, honestly it's all I know. That's just how I was raised. My mother instilled in me the art of empowering, encouraging, rejecting, praising, dismissing, loving, and checking someone only using a few (well chosen words) words. I've seen that woman dismiss someone with a smile on her face and the person didn't know they were being put back in their place until 15 minutes later. I've adopted that way with words as well simply because its fun. You throw a few well chosen above average words in a simple conversation and you will have people think about you for at least half of the day simply because they wanna pick ya brain, and that's what I like. I love it when a man is attracted to me because of my looks but that doesn't keep me satisfied. I welcome any man who attempts to get to know my brain versus simply staring at my ass and my lips all day (that gets annoying). I take pride in my vast knowledge of everything (yes I know everything....sub-consciously lol), and I adore a guy who takes pride in my brain too ;-). I also love a guy who understands the art of an double entendre.
Oh yeah I'm 20 lbs down!!! holla!!!

You Can Love Me Forever and Always (YCLMFA), You betta lud dis brain boy!

10, 10, 10, and 20 makes 50....

So I've been away for some time, yes I know I've been neglecting my blog like a bad parent! I've just finished reading the 50 Shades of Grey trilogy. In the beginning of the series I was very much into the book I came home at night and read it over watching my prime time shows. I begin to relate to one of the main characters on some levels. That need for more information, the thought of getting lost in a book versus reality, and the part of me that allows my subconscious to mock me at every turn and force me to second guess myself. As I got to the second book (50 Shades Darker) I zoomed past that one too, and I began to become more and more upset with the negative attention the book is getting. The trilogy is based on S&M (I forget the appropriate term) meaning that's what the story line is based off of. The books don't go in depth in the world of S&M they just touch the basics and explain to why a particular character is into this sexual scene. Although by the last book I was less and less interested in it. It became more of a "Lifetime" story, and it took me like 2 1/2 weeks to get through it. All in all i feel the third book fell short of the prior ones. I know this was a sucky review of the book, but this is all I really want to say on it right now.

You Can Love Me Forever and Always (YCLMFA), 50 shades style.

Two crooked feet and a lost butt is a scared road to travel!

Yesterday I did a basketball inspired workout! Im convinced I almost died. Between the high kicks and the butt kicks I've learned I lack a lot of coordination, and my parents should've probably had me evaluated as a child. But hay I completed the workout (and im still breathing)!
So you know that awkward moment when a person you barely speak to stops you and ask you ha w you lost weight? And you just start cheesing and shaking your head real fast. Lmao well that happen to me today! I didn't think you could notice in that uniform I wear to work that I actually lost weight, but that parent definitely noticed my lack of 12.5 pounds! That's probably the equivalent to a 2 month old...I think, but I could careless that's 12.5 pounds off this ass! Lmao
Speaking of asses...mine is getting smaller like literally my ass. I'm starting to development a quite fear about my ass lost. Granted I may be a big girl but my ass has an awesome shape to it, and I just don't wanna lose that! Is that a vain thought!?!? Should I be more concerned with people falling for my personality? Sure I suppose but hay you still needing something to grab on too. Personality alone doesn't put gas in the car if you know what I mean ;) . So I've made it a point to focus on my squats, lunges, and other butt maintaining activities. Mhm that sounds real bad...and its probably not what your thinking lmao!
Anywho there are a list of movies I want to see! I need a movie buddy of the opposite sex. It just gets weird sometimes when you frequent the movies with the same female all the time (depending on the movie) lol. Eh maybe in due time...
Well that's all I can solicit to you for now kiddies!
You Can Love Me Forever and Always (YCLMFA), I'm kinda hoping you will.

Could you, would you, should you luv this?!?

I've been racking my mind lately about relationships. You know when people say "I'm not looking for anyone right now because...", that phrase is simply a cop out. I know I've been there. I'm not in a relationship (while I'm being honest), I would like too but they scare the shit out if me (seriously). So I've settled for the "friend" thing or simply the guys I know I will be over in a month (wow that sounds bad lol :-/ ). The truth of the matter (sometimes) its simply the right person hasn't come knocked on your door yet, and I feel some people have a hard time admitting that (myself included sometimes). So instead we find that excuse to get people off our backs when in all actuality we should be saying "look nothings been bitting lately."
But then again some people are genuinely not looking and that's cool too. I know I'm probably THE last person to give relationship advice (miss trust issues her self), but its simply what's on my mind!
On a lighter note, I've officially lost 10 pounds!!! Yeah suck on that SUCKAS!!!!!! Now I only see it in certain areas but I'm damn pleased that I'm carrying around a lighter load. 30 more to go....wish me luck because I reaaaaaaaalllllly want some pizza....SHIT!!

That's all I have for now you stalkers,

You Can Love Me Forever and Always (YCLMFA) I can't seem to shake 'em off.

Come get this 7 lbs...my welcome back gift to you!

So im back at this again!!! Was I missed (probably not because mot alot of people read my blog before! Lol). Well to fill you guys in I've relocated to Buffalo, New York! Do I love it? Some days. Do I hate it? No. I rather not recap the last two years of my life but just know I've grown a smidge (lol).
For the past 4 weeks I've been on a "diet" or shall I say im just trying to  get back the 20 years of my life the excess weight on my body is taking. To say I am completely comfortable in my own skin would be a lie. I don't think anyone is. Ask someone if they are comfortable in their own skin and after they say yes, Ask them so what would you change about yourself? They will give you at least 3-5 things. Im comfortable to a degree, I would like it if some parts of my body didn't jiggle so much (or rub). So with that being said I've set out to lose 40 pounds by September then maybe another 30 after that (That might be pushing it tho!). I've been hitting the gym 3 to 4 times a week. So far I've lost 7 pounds (and I love it when people notice lol), 32 more to go.
I haven't really cut much out just simply sweets, fast food, and things that might cause cancer or rickets. Im trying to teach my self portion control (which is hard as hell when your a fat ass). I have noticed that my butt has gotten smaller (:-/) which scares me a bit. I fear it disappearing completely, I have no clue how to live with a flat butt!!! I hope the thigh and butt machines at the gym work, if not I'll be a sad flat assed friend!
Btw I wont make this whole blog about weight loss (that's boring), but I will announce my cravings...I want some damn baked macaroni n' cheese! Shit!!
That's all for now,
You Can Love Me Forever and Always (YCLMFA) apparently most people do.